About

Hi! My name is Jocelyn. Welcome to Jocelyn Eats Fresh. This blog is about a second chance at living, a fresh perspective on my life. I have lived most of my life battling body image issues and eating disorders – from starving and restriction, to binge eating disorder.

I guess you could say I was a solid toddler/young girl But I didn’t have these worries back then. I was just innocent and happy being me.

Involved with competitive dance from a young age, it was not the best environment for a young girl to grow up in. I grew up with body image issues. It seemed that I was always the bigger girl. I always stood out.

During my teen years I was hit the hardest and through restriction and secretly not eating during school hours, I lost an unhealthy amount of weight in a short amount of time.

After high school,  giving up dance, and during my university years things spun out of control. No matter what I did, I couldn’t stop eating. I would hide in my room and eat meals there, I wouldn’t eat out with friends, I would sit and eat anything I could get my hands on…and then some. I would order take out a few times per night and eat until I felt physically ill and had to lay on the bathroom floor, unsure of if I would be sick or not. I was depressed and just didn’t have the will in me to try to overcome this problem. I also did not have support where I was.

I decided that I could no longer be at university and living away from home. I moved back home with my parents and addressed my eating disorder with them. I joined curves, ate the healthy balanced meals my mom made me, and started walking. I was also talking to professionals each week.

 I started up this blog in around 2009 and for awhile it really helped me. I wasn’t miraculously cured from my eating problems – I still had slip ups and still had days where I binged or days where I restricted myself. I decided to take some time off from blogging though, so I could focus on myself and my needs. I found myself jealous of other bloggers and their ability to overcome such problems and their ability to just be happy and to enjoy food. I wanted that for myself and I didn’t want to be jealous of other people who had done so. I decided to take some time off from the blog, but always knew I would be back!

This year wasn’t really all about losing weight (which I did), it was more about finding myself and finding what made me happy. Well, you know what? It just so happens that food makes me happy. Healthy food, sweet food, fresh food – it all makes me smile – it brings me home. I think that’s what fascinates me about my journey the most. I’ve had such a hateful relationship to food but I can’t stop loving it. It sparks something inside me and I’m just not willing to give that up! I wanna keep trying to find the middle ground in my life. I want to be satisfied with moderation and not be afraid to indulge in what life (and food) has to offer! I want to accept my body for what it now is.

Thanks for reading!